ma3al hijrah menjengah.

Tenangnya hati kalu hati senantiasa pada Allah.

Maal hijrah,

tahun baru dalam Islam.

azam baru mula nak terpasang,

tapi fikirkan, 

azam dan semangat lampau apa jadinya,

haish,

banyak nak kena dibaiki,

aku masih belum jadi muslimah yang baik.

doakanlah,

bimbnglah diri ini wahai kawan, kalu mahu.

Ya Allah,
Engkau bersihkanlah hatiku.

InshaAllah

Nabi Muhammad SAW pernah di tanya oleh jibril..
Apakah itu "ihsan"?

Nabi menjawab...

"ihsan" ialah kamu beribadah kpd Allah seolah2 kamu melihat Allah...
Sekiranya kamu tidak mampu, maka bribadahlah kamu seolah2 Allah swt melihat kamu...

i hope you will

guide me friends. i'm lost.

pray for me friends because i'm lost.

People Changed and Changing. Do You?

credit to twincities

Please stop the rumours.

I feel bad.
And it was getting worse when I am talking to people.
and acting like nothing bad had revealed.
I use to be talkative.
babbling here and there.
love to make friends n explore.

but.yeah!
People changed. So do I.
I hope I changed to be the better me.
I love to be in calmness.
and living life without hesitate my past.

ps. hoping for Allah’s guidance upon me.

guideme, please

credit to theresahope

im not in a good state of emotion. (*hope not mind too)
i can tell you that.
i dont tell you actually,
i wrote it, and you read.

better to say "Thanks Allah" coz i will never tell u directly.
i hate this kind of feeling myself.
so why should i tell?
i hate i let it spoiling my days.
i hope it just a while.

let me bring u precisely to the reason.
i hate sympathy.
i hate somes use as a reason to be friend of mine.
i hate it.
i hope u know.

Ya Allah, guide this lady back to the right path towards you. Amin.

i hate you

if u trust me.
thankyou.

if u like me.
thanks!

if u going to be friendly and to be my friend.
tell me.

if u going to hate me.
tell me and you're welcome to.

but if everything based on sympathies.
ohhhh damn it!
go away please. far beyond my reach, Please.
Cause you make me changed my url, the way i am, and the way i thought about you.
it is already pathetic. and you make me more worse.
i hate you 'sympathy'!

OH. be my guider kawan. I need you.

once injured

"When deep injury is done to us,
we never recover until we forgive...

Forgiveness does not change the past,
but it does enlarge the future."

- Mary Karen Read
- Directed by Christopher S. Towle

the confession. haha

salamualaik'

waaah. lamanye aku x update blog. banyak nak cerite. tapi cam x penting2 je semua. n lagipun x sempat bukak intenet lama2.

Akhirnya, dah 4 hari balik rumah.. bestnye. boleh tidor nyenyak2. no more bed bug that crawling2 around me. Dah la jetlag x de. lagi besh. Tak pening2 pale.

NI bukak blog, tgk calendar jab. Ponder. "aiyoo, dasyatnye aku jadik kawan." Maaf ea kawan2.

birthday ko dan ko aku x wish pun. Even abang angkat aku yang kawin pun aku x kata ape2. waahh sangat dasyat!

Aku x mo la jadik orang yang lupa kawan. Tapi, ak x de la lupe. cume aku x sempat. mane ade internet kat rumah sewa. Mintak maaf ye... haha, so..

Happy belated birthday kawan!
Semoga yg sorang tu dpt rambut idaman, sorang lagi dapat gi London tahun nih, sorang yang lain dapat lptop baru yg lagi canggeh dr aku, sorang lagi dapat buku John Grisham yg terbaru,

Selamat Pengantin Baru abangku!
Semoga bahagia dan dirahmati Allah sentiase. =)

Mabruk ya ukhti and kawan2.
Tahniah ye. Cayalah! Berbaloi usaha2 korang nak jadi top dalam kelas.

Lastly. tata for now. Terbang ke Malaysia elok2.

.the end.

ps: the confession bg jgrisham out this 26oct in north america. IN malaysia not sure when.

for what i had done

The conclusion is too obvious.
"i am sorry."

:: i am trying so hard.. or am i not? ::

I know i'm not supposed to write, i'm not even supposed to open my laptop. Exams are still on the way and going to be 4 more papers to sit.

Hurm, have two more Quranic exams to finish Juzuk Thirty, take one Arabic exam on grammar, oral test on Arabic speaking and i'm done. That's all. So, why I’m so stress out? Guess, i don't study hard. No. Not hard enough. =.=”

picture credit

At the same time, life's playing really hard on me nowadays. Need to do some reflection. I open some blogs and hey, i found one, it's a sister's blog. I bookmarked her blog, make a reminder in my mind to link her's to mine. See. I'm busy updating my blog too. Haha. Kidding.

I felt really sorry. Sorry to those who support me for staying study smart and striving my dreams. Sorry. And thank you guys for remains there and keep holding my back.

*sigh. I guessed I lost my ability to manage my problems and I lost my path. Well, my life seems complicated from the beginning-beginning, so it doesn’t matter how big the problems before, I am acting cool. =) so, why don’t I act the same for this problem? Its just the same problem that continue from the past after all.

“Oh Ya Allah, please guide her to lead her life to the fullest in Iman.” Amin.,

I need to focus, I need to realize, and i know there's still time, it's not too late yet. So, what i'm hesitating now?

salam.

Ps/= mom, didi, ummu, n samm. If you are there reading this. Please say ‘take your time crying my dear’ just after you see me. Cause I really miss my tears. It is not a good life without tears. –from 1year9monthes observation, so far_

To aie. Hey, I don’t need you to say that to me. Just cheering back your life and it will automatically cheer my life. No doubt! =)

:: not to be read by you, thankyou ::

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takyah bace kot.
gi lah tekan X kaler merah kat atas tu. Tenkiu.=)
semuorg baik kn?
so, pergilah~
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waaa.
aku takut.
siyes, ak x pena rase takut camnih.
nak cite. tp ak xtaw nk cite ape

ak bnyk kali da kot, dok ruma sorang2 sjak kecik dulu.
jln2 pastu balik ruma pagi2 burung hantu.
lg2 time guruh.. haish. ak nyorok bwh kerusi.
time wt desicion itu n ini.
takut jugak time tuh.
tp nape takut time nih dasyat sgt.

gi ler sane..
ngadu pada Maha Pencipta.
Dia ciptakn ko.
slalu ko oke je sedih2 gembire2 gi citer ngan Dia.
tak kan bulan nih mengong da!
lagho benor ke?
hati ko tuh, hitam sgt da ke?

astaghfirullah hala'zim..
sedarla ek.
insafla.
dunia klu dikejar mmg dpt dunia jek.
so, kejar la akhirat, smg dpt dunia n akhirat.

dah!
let it go.
beristighfar bnyk2.
gi bkak Quran sane.
solat ape yg perlu.
oke?
oke x?

T.T

=.=
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