ma3al hijrah menjengah.

Tenangnya hati kalu hati senantiasa pada Allah.

Maal hijrah,

tahun baru dalam Islam.

azam baru mula nak terpasang,

tapi fikirkan, 

azam dan semangat lampau apa jadinya,

haish,

banyak nak kena dibaiki,

aku masih belum jadi muslimah yang baik.

doakanlah,

bimbnglah diri ini wahai kawan, kalu mahu.

Ya Allah,
Engkau bersihkanlah hatiku.

InshaAllah

i hope you will

guide me friends. i'm lost.

pray for me friends because i'm lost.

People Changed and Changing. Do You?

credit to twincities

Please stop the rumours.

I feel bad.
And it was getting worse when I am talking to people.
and acting like nothing bad had revealed.
I use to be talkative.
babbling here and there.
love to make friends n explore.

but.yeah!
People changed. So do I.
I hope I changed to be the better me.
I love to be in calmness.
and living life without hesitate my past.

ps. hoping for Allah’s guidance upon me.

guideme, please

credit to theresahope

im not in a good state of emotion. (*hope not mind too)
i can tell you that.
i dont tell you actually,
i wrote it, and you read.

better to say "Thanks Allah" coz i will never tell u directly.
i hate this kind of feeling myself.
so why should i tell?
i hate i let it spoiling my days.
i hope it just a while.

let me bring u precisely to the reason.
i hate sympathy.
i hate somes use as a reason to be friend of mine.
i hate it.
i hope u know.

Ya Allah, guide this lady back to the right path towards you. Amin.

i hate you

if u trust me.
thankyou.

if u like me.
thanks!

if u going to be friendly and to be my friend.
tell me.

if u going to hate me.
tell me and you're welcome to.

but if everything based on sympathies.
ohhhh damn it!
go away please. far beyond my reach, Please.
Cause you make me changed my url, the way i am, and the way i thought about you.
it is already pathetic. and you make me more worse.
i hate you 'sympathy'!

OH. be my guider kawan. I need you.

the confession. haha

salamualaik'

waaah. lamanye aku x update blog. banyak nak cerite. tapi cam x penting2 je semua. n lagipun x sempat bukak intenet lama2.

Akhirnya, dah 4 hari balik rumah.. bestnye. boleh tidor nyenyak2. no more bed bug that crawling2 around me. Dah la jetlag x de. lagi besh. Tak pening2 pale.

NI bukak blog, tgk calendar jab. Ponder. "aiyoo, dasyatnye aku jadik kawan." Maaf ea kawan2.

birthday ko dan ko aku x wish pun. Even abang angkat aku yang kawin pun aku x kata ape2. waahh sangat dasyat!

Aku x mo la jadik orang yang lupa kawan. Tapi, ak x de la lupe. cume aku x sempat. mane ade internet kat rumah sewa. Mintak maaf ye... haha, so..

Happy belated birthday kawan!
Semoga yg sorang tu dpt rambut idaman, sorang lagi dapat gi London tahun nih, sorang yang lain dapat lptop baru yg lagi canggeh dr aku, sorang lagi dapat buku John Grisham yg terbaru,

Selamat Pengantin Baru abangku!
Semoga bahagia dan dirahmati Allah sentiase. =)

Mabruk ya ukhti and kawan2.
Tahniah ye. Cayalah! Berbaloi usaha2 korang nak jadi top dalam kelas.

Lastly. tata for now. Terbang ke Malaysia elok2.

.the end.

ps: the confession bg jgrisham out this 26oct in north america. IN malaysia not sure when.

for what i had done

The conclusion is too obvious.
"i am sorry."

:: i am trying so hard.. or am i not? ::

I know i'm not supposed to write, i'm not even supposed to open my laptop. Exams are still on the way and going to be 4 more papers to sit.

Hurm, have two more Quranic exams to finish Juzuk Thirty, take one Arabic exam on grammar, oral test on Arabic speaking and i'm done. That's all. So, why I’m so stress out? Guess, i don't study hard. No. Not hard enough. =.=”

picture credit

At the same time, life's playing really hard on me nowadays. Need to do some reflection. I open some blogs and hey, i found one, it's a sister's blog. I bookmarked her blog, make a reminder in my mind to link her's to mine. See. I'm busy updating my blog too. Haha. Kidding.

I felt really sorry. Sorry to those who support me for staying study smart and striving my dreams. Sorry. And thank you guys for remains there and keep holding my back.

*sigh. I guessed I lost my ability to manage my problems and I lost my path. Well, my life seems complicated from the beginning-beginning, so it doesn’t matter how big the problems before, I am acting cool. =) so, why don’t I act the same for this problem? Its just the same problem that continue from the past after all.

“Oh Ya Allah, please guide her to lead her life to the fullest in Iman.” Amin.,

I need to focus, I need to realize, and i know there's still time, it's not too late yet. So, what i'm hesitating now?

salam.

Ps/= mom, didi, ummu, n samm. If you are there reading this. Please say ‘take your time crying my dear’ just after you see me. Cause I really miss my tears. It is not a good life without tears. –from 1year9monthes observation, so far_

To aie. Hey, I don’t need you to say that to me. Just cheering back your life and it will automatically cheer my life. No doubt! =)

:: ohoi anda.. ::

With the name of ALlah SWT.

anda!
semoga jawab exam dengan elok.
semoga hidup dengan elok.
semoga bekerje ngan elok.
semoga bawak kreta elok2.
semoga jalan2 dan sampai destinasi dgn masih elok.
semoga solat2 anda PUN elok.


YA ALLAH, Yang Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang.
bantulah aku dan rakan2ku.
Kami hambaMu yang memerlukanMu dalam setiap saat yang medatang.
ENgkau tabahkanlah hati kami,
berikanlah kami kekuatan dalam mencari hidayahMU.
dan menempuh ujian2 yang Engkau berikan.

Amin.

:: fly, i want to fly ::

countinue my cot cet..

i wrote this,

adik suruh balik..
mak kate tak kesa.
but, the way i look to my family,
i shall say that i need to fly back this year.
*atleast.

=)
nice post.
and nice way on shooting doubt to my heart.

in one of my comrade's blog. Its seem she has make her heart for not flying home. I didnt mad at her. and Indeed,i agree most of the reasons stated there for that kind of decision.

tapi, for sure.
I want to fly. Fly without my own wing. Flying home for huging my pets and my loves.
I want to fly home.
I want to.



InsyaAllah Mumtaz. Agar aku balik tanpa resah n gelisah.
agar aku balik terus nampak senyuman dari yang tersayang.

Bitawfiq wannajah for those yang nak exam.
teruskan lah berjuang, timba ilmu ALlah kerana Allah.
=)
cool2 ye pada mereka yg nak exam. aku tAu ramai.

tp ade gak yag da hbis exam. Task diorang sekarang nak isikan cuti ngan berfaedah lak.
kan? kan??

mood : =) stabil
status : bukak buku and buat muka konpius.

:: for this month ::

Olla. and salamualaikum.

=)
well. im happy here.
please dont worry for those who was worrying me much.
Please dont burden your mind, thinking of my problem.

Its been clearly, Allah want me to thanks Him, and show my gratitude as her slaves that get rezk from Allah The al-Mighty.
So why not i suffer for a bit 3 weeks, live the life with my 50rm and without absolute money pocket.
Even, catu pun, i still alive kan?


Thank you Ya Allah, you give me the way for me to fasting, for me to berjimat (x.x) and for me to ponder on those my sisters and brothers in islam that have even more dublo-zillions suffered.
They might also never hold and grab a cent of money.
Living on other's sympathy, or even, urm worst than that.

Please blessing them Ya Allah.

mood : catu..catu.. sekali sekala mau catu..
Status : kad bank bermasalah.

ulala~

not an entry.

esok exam.
hari pertama untuk bulan exam.

doakan ye.

" YA Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu ini, Ya Allah. Kembalikanlah apa yang dibaca dan difahaminya ketika diperlukan. Sesungguhnya hanya Engkau Tuhan yang maha berkuasa atas segala sesuatu.
Amin."

ps/= ciksu. jangan lupa tgkp gambar bushi2 sekali. kiter da hyper-rindu.

letting the feeling free.

well mannerly, Salamualaik'
hope all of you in a good state of mind n soul.

Its a bit tough for this week, I just can't really describe how it feels.
But I know, that i hate the term of curiosity now.
I mean it just on my current condition.

After I lost my hand phone for about a month, it’s found back. And there was the moment curiosity start bulging in.
Yekla kan? Hilang kat ruma, n jumpa lak kat rumah. Kenapa tuh?

So then, I couldn’t resist my eagerness. I make my action.

Albert Einstein once said. You know, the kind of curiosity that made Isaac
Newton wonder what forces were at play instead of simply picking up and munching
on the apple that fell on his head. And there beginning of the brilliant theory
that arose from it.

So then, it is now the kind of curiosity that makes me eager to know the person behind it based on the evidence left behind. Ngeh2, if u say im acting like penyiasat. Well, I did guess so. Just when Newton got his brilliant theory, I get my bad day and all day long with bad mood. Astaghfirullahal azim..

”It can’t be.’’ ‘’it couldn’t be her’’ ‘’Not she the good person?’’ they are what my mind keep pondering on.

I hope u guys get what this post story end up with without I further explain.
Admit it; it is not actually the ending when I did know The One.
(*sigh) Is it really particularly can’t loss from my mind?
How am I going to live in a same roof with a sort of bad feeling in my heart towards other?Towards my college mate?

Ya Allah, please get me free from this kind of feeling. Amin,



"Allah is He, than Whom there is no other god:- Who knows (all things) Both secret and open; He, Most Gracious, Most Merciful."[Surah al-Hashr : 22]

Keep that on your mind Fath! So I need to convince myself. She had a concrete reason on what she had done, and even Allah had made the Qada’ and Qadar to be smoothly like that. Just thanks to Allah and be grateful you got your phone back and not lost from whole of your life. Alhamdulillah. =)

• Mood : Mixed.
• Status :
  *balik dari 42nd international Cairo book fair, tired.
  *Met raihana from not-so-far Jordan.
  *Grateful to hold again my precious phone.

Hari Celcom Sedunia ke?

Hari Celcom Sedunia? Mereka bahagia.

Fenomena yang berlaku hari ni, 02022010. memang luar biasa.
Balik kuliyah tadi, hampir semua pegang hanfon n bersembang2.

Rasa amu’ bas ABC pun tadi, pelik tengok ragam rakyat Malaysia. Waktu kat kuliyah pun tadi, waktu rehat, macam2 spot tempat orang bergayut.
Goyang2 kaki depan blok kuliyah,
tepi longgakan kereta belakang surau,
belakang pintu,
tepi tangga, apa lagi nak?

Yang pasti semua orang hepi, n muka pun berseri.

Mana tak nye.
Celcom tengah baek.
Free calling for one day,
Emph! Apa lagi, nonstop try n retrieve call2 orang kat tanah air.
Sapa nak lepas kan peluang, ye tak?

Terima Kasih Celcom. Menceria hari kiteorang yang menanti lagi 6 untuk balik ke Tanah Air.

Mood : tak gembira.
Status : rindu pada hanfon. Mana kau pergi hanfon. Daku setia menunggu. =P

Bersabar.

Salamualaik!
haiz..
dah nak masuk bulan 2 dah ni,
tapi baru nak post titlle pertama untuk tahun ni.

Sibuk.
tu je yang mampu cakap.
sibuk sesangat.
InsyaAllah masa yang dah digunakan tu tak berlalu dengan rugi.
ye la, da terang2 dalam Al quran tertulis.

''Demi Masa. Sesungguhnya manusia itu dalam kerugian. Melainkan, orang2 yang beriman, beramal soleh.''(103:1-3)

aha sebelum lupa.
Selamat Pengantin Baru ye amira.
Semoga ikatan tu berkekalan ke syurga.
amin~

Dalam sibuk2 pun, sekarang tengah kecoh pasal kawan yang dah berpengantin baru..
haiz..
kawan aku da kawen da??
x caye je rasanya. tapi tak pe la.
dah memang betul. kenyataan mesti di terima. kan? kan?
untuk kebaikan apa salahnya.
=P.

tapi yekla,
mulut orang macam2.
nanti lama2 depa diam, dan turut join kegembiraan ea
for now, bersabar n pegang la pada satu kata2, yang aku pun lupa mana usulnya.

ala2 gini,
''and the true servants of the Most Merciful are those who walk the earth with humility and when the ignorant address them, they respond with words of peace.''

-end-

mood : yippie.
status : peacocking.

ulala~

Salamualaik' kawan2.

tet!
genap setahun lagi.
1431 Hijrah?
2010Masihi?
ayoo

haritu baru je rasa baca doa akhir tahun, solat jemaah dengan famili than, baca doa awal tahun.
tengok2 kita baca lagi.
cepatnya masa berlalu...
tet, tet, teeeet!


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''Demi masa. Sungguh! Manusia berada dalam kerugian. kecuali mereka, orang2 beriman dan mengerjakan kebajikan serta saling menasihati untuk kebenaran, dan saling menasihati untuk kesabaran.'' (110 :1-3)

Ya Allah, jauhkan diri kami dari berada dalam golongan yang kerugian.

=)

salam ramadhon kawan!

lagi brape hari jek lagi en puasa..

meh gunakan dgn sebaiknya.

bukan senang tuh..

maafkan salah n silap fath.

manelah taw tergelak lebih2..

terngata terngutuk or even mendengar jek orang kutuk..

halalkan lah duit2 yang diblanje semua..

halalkan gak ye hutang2 fath sume.

kalu fath ade hutang banyak2. cepat2lah bgtaw.

fath lupe tuh..

Kalau ade janji fath yang tak tertunai pun, silelah. bgtaw.

=) okeh?

maafkan ye pada yang berkenaan pada peristiwa ogos ritu.

tak sanggup lg nak hadapi.

tak cukup tabah n kuat gamaknye..

Terima kasih pd semua.

terima kasih pd sape yg balanje fath samade terpakse ke tak. hee.

terima kasih pd sesape yang doakan kesihatan n kesejahteraan fath.

teima kasihlah segalanya.

=) hingga berjumpa lg.

selamat hari RAYA aidilFITRI~

away~

away to a places that far away. Away from hectic and busy life of mine there. NO more sth that remind me to that. Please.


=)
-i am cikgu tadika-

:: ''selamat selamat''::

salam buat semua.
diam x diam kita dah hampir ke penghujung bulan syaaban.
bergitu cepat nya masa berlalu.
berahkirnya bulan syaaban.

Memang tak terasa pun dah nak puasa..
Pergi sini pergi sana, menyelesaikan perkara yang perlu diselesaikan.
Sampaikan 10 rancang, 4 je baru slesai. (ohoh. ituu fath la. korang x kan?)
Blog pun memang konfem akan terwujudnya sesawang. maafla.

fazz_alqadrie_photo

Lalu, di galeri photobucket. terserempak dengan image ini.
Macam bermakna2 je tengok. jadi copylah.

Ringkasnya, rebutlah sesuatu di dalam bulan ini...
kerana ia tiada di bulan2 yang lain...
dan berbanyakkan lah beribadat di dalam bulan ramadhan..
Semoga RAMADHAN kali ini lebih bermakna dari tahun2 sebelumnya.

Ramadhan tetap akan datangkan sama ada kita bersedia ke tak.
Mahu atau tak.
Hendak atau tak hendak!
Jadi berusaha dan berdoalah agar kita mampu mengisi Ramadhan kali ini dengan amalan yang terbaik, jauh lebih baik dari tahun2 lepas.
Manalah tahu Ramadhan kali ni entah2 yang terlast.

Tapi crite pasal ramadhan. Teringat lak lagu keramat Ustad Wan NUh dulu. Lagu yang entah bila boleh terlupa.
RAMADHAN bulan yang suci~

Nway, selamat berpuasa ye rakan2 dan selamat menyambut hari kemerdekaan yang lagi beberapa minggu. hee.



oh ye. sebelum pelupa lebih lupa. Selamat Pengantin Baru. Akhil Hayy & Waheeda. Semoga kekal didunia hingga akhirat, ameen.

ps/= sememangnya puasa kali ini lain dari yang lain bagiku.

:: ye. ye. Aku pun same ::

post khas ditujukan kepada C'ngeq, Tyang, dan Deq'ra aha. tak lupa.. pada MISS SAMM.TApi masih ditujukan kepada kawan2 yang kenal diri inih.




Petang tadi,
Aku ceria jek.
Fikirkan esok nak kerja. MEnjalankan tugas sebagai pendidik bangsa. (*haha, poyo)

DAn sambil aku merentasi lautan besar tanpa had kat internet nih, aku berchatting bersama teman2.

Alkisah, ada seorang daripada teman2 ni punya gelaran CHE'nGeq. Dalam 30minit bermain2 kata dan menari2 kan jari. Kami mula mahu berpisah kembali.

c'ngeq :

''Rindu ar. kim salam kt kucg2 ko gak,aku winduu, huhu''

dan menyambung kate2 dengan penuh terharu..

c'ngeq :

''kat coco tuh (**coco tuh beruang. Beruang maenan. Gambar disertakan
dibawah)''

aku tergelak jek. dan tanpa menunggu detik2 saat berlalu, aku membalas tanpa belas :

''elleh,rindu konon, dah!, kate nak blah!''

TETAPI, tanpa perasaannye, die pun meneruskan hujahnye. Melafazkan kat rindunya..

"kat meje mkn ko, kat pkok orkid lam umh ko tuh......"

"haha". Aku menyampuk. gelakkan. Yekla.. pelik tgk orang camnih.

TAPI, fikir2 balik. rupa2nya kiteorang dah lame x bersua muke. Dah lama x berhubung. Dah lama x melantak as known as makan bersame. Dan dah lama tak ukur ketinggian!

=) Tapi tetap di hatikan kalu jauh di mata?
Dan tetap saling mendoakan kesejahteraan kawan2 kan?
Harap dapat jumpa, selagi ada masa.
Maafkan kesilapan aku ek selame berkawan n bersahabat.
Maafkan gak kalu tak jadik sahabat yg baek.
Dan maafkan jugak kalu tak sampaikan berita pasal diri, sebab nak menyendiri.

Tapi Allhamdulillah sume perkara dah nak hampir selesai. =).
Jadik leyh sambung belajar!!!~ yeay!



MOOD n STATUS = hepi. Dah jumpe piano sheet lagu tarzan. haha. =D
tapi still rindoo kawan di sekola. kawan sekelas. dan kawan sedorm.

Mohon mendoakan supaya kita sama2 diberikan Allah kekuatan, dan kesihatan yang baik dan mendoakan yang terbaik untuk semua. __